Update: I kicked infertility's butt

Ok,
It has been so very long since I've been on here.
I changed my privacy settings, because, as much as I was happy to expose my pain to friends & family - in the hopes of helping someone - things got crazy and things got personal.

I started IVF in December. It was way earlier than I had planned, so felt a little rushed. Completely exciting and overwhelming. I remember driving home from the pharmacy with my enormous bag of drugs in disbelief. This was it.
But it wasn't actually.
I overdosed on gonal f - can you believe it? I accidentally gave myself a massive rush of hormones beyond what was helpful to the growing eggs in my belly. So, they request I cancel the cycle. Gut wrenching, but in retrospect, timing was probably just not right. Or I'm an idiot. Either way, I don't really count it as an attempt, as we didn't get far. Still devastating.

We started our next cycle, the one that continued to conclusion. Oh, so much detail & advice to give about this process - if you haven't been through it, it is inconceivable how difficult IVF can be. I will write some more specific posts following this one.
I was able to do most of the process during school holidays, which meant I could be sick from the meds, and get to appointments easily. I ended up with 15 eggs retrieved, 7 embryos, which reduced to 4 - one implanted and 3 in the freezer!!

At this point I was in complete disbelief - I think infertility convinces you that your body is incapable of responding in the way that normal female fertile bodies do.

Loooong story short, it worked. It actually bloody worked. Complete shock & elation, overflowing joy & hope. I am just 5 weeks now - so so early. But I still can't believe it. I wish I could visit each woman who is currently crying in the bathroom at another period, and tell them if it can happen for me, it can happen for them.

It is possible.
Anything is possible.